I have found my second pregnancy to be easier in some ways but much more difficult in others, especially when it comes to the exhaustion I have been experiencing the last few months as a working mum. The first time around after slogging it out at the office all day I could come home and dive on the couch, but now I have bouncing pre-schooler waiting for me at the kindergarten gates.
I have struggled through the last five months but now thanks to Doctors advice I have bitten the bullet and started my maternity leave a little earlier than expected.
Today is my first day of being a TV mum. You know the ones. The mums that drop the kids off at school and then pop down to do the groceries (on their own) before driving home to put on the washing and make the beds. (Just bliss – Hey I know it probably isn’t that great, but that is what office daydreaming is for)
Anyway , I was definitely looking forward today. A day that promised a less chaotic morning, (hence mum not worrying about being sacked for being late again) and more importantly, a much less busy evening. (I.e. shopping, washing etc done before I get home from work)
But in no way was I prepared for the amazing feeling of peace, relief and freedom that has come with actually being on my own. (I had nowhere to be, nothing pressing to do, and no one to supervise) After somewhat guiltily dropping my gorgeous little girl off at child care, I strolled down to the supermarket, picked out the groceries I needed, (not what little princess wanted) without the feeling of urgency I have after work, and almost floated back to the car whilst staring into the dress shop windows.
When I got home, the house felt so big and so quiet. I walked around picking up toys and unloading groceries just soaking in the strange sense of peace and freedom. It is definitely a nice feeling having a moment to think, but at the same time it feels very strange. It is the first time in four years I have been in the house on my own, and as much as I have fantasised about it, I think it is going to get a bit of getting used to.